The wind blew him fifteen hundred miles in twenty-four hours, and he fell in the middle of Russia.
That was the kind of man I mean.
Think of the woman he loved, and how other women must have envied her!
That's what I should like to be,—envied for my man."
"I'd have done it to please you."
"But you shouldn't do it merely to please me.
You should do it because you can't help yourself, because it's natural to you, because the man in you is crying out for heroic expression.
Now, when you described the Wigan coal explosion last month, could you not have gone down and helped those people, in spite of the choke-damp?"
"You never said so."
"There was nothing worth bucking about."
"I didn't know."
She looked at me with rather more interest.
"That was brave of you."
"I had to.
If you want to write good copy, you must be where the things are."
"What a prosaic motive!
It seems to take all the romance out of it.
But, still, whatever your motive, I am glad that you went down that mine."
She gave me her hand; but with such sweetness and dignity that I could only stoop and kiss it.
"I dare say I am merely a foolish woman with a young girl's fancies.
And yet it is so real with me, so entirely part of my very self, that I cannot help acting upon it.
If I marry, I do want to marry a famous man!"
"Why should you not?" I cried.
"It is women like you who brace men up.
Give me a chance, and see if I will take it!
Besides, as you say, men ought to MAKE their own chances, and not wait until they are given.
Look at Clive—just a clerk, and he conquered India!
By George! I'll do something in the world yet!"
She laughed at my sudden Irish effervescence.
"Why not?" she said.
"You have everything a man could have,—youth, health, strength, education, energy.
I was sorry you spoke.
And now I am glad—so glad—if it wakens these thoughts in you!"
"And if I do——"
Her dear hand rested like warm velvet upon my lips.
"Not another word, Sir!
You should have been at the office for evening duty half an hour ago; only I hadn't the heart to remind you.
Some day, perhaps, when you have won your place in the world, we shall talk it over again."
And so it was that I found myself that foggy November evening pursuing the Camberwell tram with my heart glowing within me, and with the eager determination that not another day should elapse before I should find some deed which was worthy of my lady.
But who—who in all this wide world could ever have imagined the incredible shape which that deed was to take, or the strange steps by which I was led to the doing of it?
And, after all, this opening chapter will seem to the reader to have nothing to do with my narrative; and yet there would have been no narrative without it, for it is only when a man goes out into the world with the thought that there are heroisms all round him, and with the desire all alive in his heart to follow any which may come within sight of him, that he breaks away as I did from the life he knows, and ventures forth into the wonderful mystic twilight land where lie the great adventures and the great rewards.
Behold me, then, at the office of the Daily Gazette, on the staff of which I was a most insignificant unit, with the settled determination that very night, if possible, to find the quest which should be worthy of my Gladys!
Was it hardness, was it selfishness, that she should ask me to risk my life for her own glorification?
Such thoughts may come to middle age; but never to ardent three-and-twenty in the fever of his first love.
CHAPTER II "Try Your Luck with Professor Challenger"
I always liked McArdle, the crabbed, old, round-backed, red-headed news editor, and I rather hoped that he liked me.
Of course, Beaumont was the real boss; but he lived in the rarefied atmosphere of some Olympian height from which he could distinguish nothing smaller than an international crisis or a split in the Cabinet.
Sometimes we saw him passing in lonely majesty to his inner sanctum, with his eyes staring vaguely and his mind hovering over the Balkans or the Persian Gulf.
He was above and beyond us. But McArdle was his first lieutenant, and it was he that we knew.